Why

Why doesn’t it bother you

To see me cry

To see how much it hurts to say goodbye

I dont think it ever mattered to you

That all you thought of was yourself

I cant believe I wasted all my time

Just so you could turn around and say goodbye

So you could sit there a lie to me

Tell me that you see yourself in me

What a joke you never cared

Hell a freaking dog would make a better friend

How could you completely lie to my face

Where you only in my life

So when you walked back out it would hurt so much

You say you dont want me to leave

Well your haven’t given me any reason to stay

Give me some kind of sign give me some kind

Of reason to let me know that you want me to stay

If not im walking out that door and never coming back

Do you want me to stay or do you want me to go

Open your mouth and let the words come threw

I dont wanna lose you so tell me are you the one

That could turn my life around

To rise and set this old worlds sun

Baby I love you

Your the one that I want to stay with

Can’t you see that I want you to tell me

To stay that you need me here

To make your world better

Then it was before

Why can’t i just let you go

I want you to say stay but you haven’t ever given me one

Reason to

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Used To The Pain

How long does it take

To save the pain you cause

You came into my life just to

Turn it inside out

The reason that I cant

Sleep at night

The reason and air plane crashes in flight

The monster that you created

Can you feel it now

The growling you hear

Is the sound of the Pain you caused

I should be used to the pain

But honey you create a whole different

Kind the kind that makes little children run amuck

The reason the towers crash the reason people die

Where you ever going to admit that you are the

Real life Satan

The real life demon that haunts people in the dreams

As I take a closer look I realize

I never really could trust you

You say you hope and pray that you never hurt me

What do you think you have done

I act like all is well

Are you really that stupid to see that

You have screwed everything up

You have ruined his life

What happened to the girl

Who said I like you too

The one that I would do anything for

The one that supposedly leads a Christian life

Where did that woman go

I want her back

The one that I trusted and loved

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Lies

Where you ever going

To tell me the truth

That you were

Going behind my back

Lies that you told me

Are just the icing to the cake

I can’t believe my best friend

Or so called one at that

You were the one that took him

Right out from underneath me

Where you even going to tell me the truth

Or were you just going to continue the lies

You knew from the very beginning that

It would kill me inside to know that you were lieing

To me about the fact you were

Tearing me apart at the seams

OK it’s time for the monster

To be unleashed to let my true colors show

To become the human being that I was meant to be

Are you ready to feel the wrath of the monster

You have unleashed on yourself

How can you sit there so calm when You

Made my life hell

Was it just a joke to you

Now it’s time for the price to be paid

The reason I feel for you

Your the one that gets stuck with the claws

You have unleashed a whole different

Type of pain upon yourself

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Trust

You always said that

You would never leave me

Never forsake me

Now I stand alone outside your house

And wonder where did it all go

All the trust I thought you had in me

One mistake and it was out the door

We all make mistakes

I recall you making a few yourself

Where did the you that I love go

You were the one that I relied on

The one that I would die for

Now all of a sudden one guy comes in

And you turn into a total different person

Where did the real you go

I miss that one the one that I care for

Where did the trust go between us

I never thought I would be standing

Here today saying goodbye to the life

That we shared

Was it that easy for you to walk away

As I sit alone in my room I think about

All the time I have wasted thinking

That you were put in my life for a reason

I guess they were right all along

People make mistakes

I just was stupid enough to fall for it

Where you just as hurt as I was

Were you planning this all along

Tempting the demon that lies beneath

To erupt and come crashing threw these broken dreams

Where you ever really going to change

Or were you going to stand around

Until it all fell apart right around me

Just so you could stand a point and laugh

Watching me pick up the pieces of my shattered life

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Two Loves

You were there for me from the start

Where did it turn to something

I can not live with out

Is it pride geting in the way

Of how I truly feel for you

You are one of the two loves

That I have and could never live

With out

You have me completely addicted

To the way you laugh and the smile’

That could make the biggest

Man in the world fall to his knees

When you come into a town

Everybody turns around just to

Catch a glimpse of you

Even for the most trained eye you look

Like an angel sent from heaven to rescue me

You are the Two loves that

I could never live with out

Amazing

So many people don’t understand

What it is that makes me want you

The way you walk the way you laugh

So many things that no one will get

How I feel about you will never be fake

They never understand what makes me

Go so crazy for you all the time

I can’t even describe what it is

That I love so much about you

Why can’t people see

What it is that makes me love you

Life and love are the good things

But you are what makes it worth

It all for the rest of my life

God Father

You were the one that could scare

The biggest monsters away from me

You were the one that watched over me

To make sure no evil could ever hurt me

If they tried then you would make em cry

Never knew how much you loved me

Didn’t see that you were always there

To keep the world at arms length

You are the one that would die for me

The one that cries for me

THe man that I call my God Father

The One that told me all I would

Need is a cracker and I could

Take on the world

That one that sees so much

In one teenager

Could never love you less and never

Love you more than I do now

You are the one that would

Die for his Sister and his God Daughter

Never Thought that you could protect me from

All Evil that is afoot

The most amazing man that any girl could ask for

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Hidden

These feelings that have been

Hidden deep within my soul

Not wanting people to know

How much I truly want you

How when I look at you my

World stops completely

How Can It be that you could

Totally terrify me and make

Me want you at the same time

Makeing my head spin losing

Myself in your eyes

How it would feel to tell you how

I truley feel when your around

Why does it have to be so hard to

Breathe when I see you

So many thoughts racing threw

My head wishing that one day

I could truley

Know how it feels to be

Loved by a man

That truly knows

How to treat a Woman

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Blue Eyes

I never thought that I would

Get so lost in that crooked

Little smile that could

Light up an entire room

People don’t know why

I think this about you

If they only knew how

I feel about you

The way you could walk in

And turn every head

Were you the one that

I saw in my dreams

I see so much in one man

They way I feel when I

Look at you

Couldn’t ever belive that

I would think about you

Getting lost in one moment

Looking at you and losing it

Where did it turn from

Friendship to attraction

How can that crooked smile

And baby blue eyes

Totally make me melt

Can I ever shake this feeling

That is hidden deep inside

What I feel for you

Is something that I’ve

Never known before

The way I feel when

You walk in and flash

The smile it makes me

Think that anything is possible

The way I never think I’m Good enough

And the way you walk

No matter how I feel

When you smile the whole world

Turns and looks

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Scared

You say on your late night call

That it should have been you

Instead of her why

All it would have done was delay

The pain and suffereing she indured

It wasn’t you know child should have

To know the pain that you were in

The pain I can never take away

I will always be there when you need a shoulder

To cry on to be the rock you need

I will be your journal with two ears and a heart

It wasn’t your fault you were scared

Now getting up every day feeling guilty

Wish i could take away your pain and hold it for my own

You are the one that I truly would do anything for

Be anything you need me to be

Live my life the way i should be the person that I know

We both can be so stubborn and so funny

You were the rock when i needed you

So honey im here to tell you that when you need me

I will always be there to hold you in a hug and tell you how proud i am of you.